The End of an Era

I have been coming upon many retirements these days. Almost every month there is one. Every organisation I go to, I seem to have the privilege of seeing a couple of seniors off to their homes. While I thought that so many adieus in the past have made me kind of immune to them, today I find myself feeling at a loss.. for the retirement of an ex boss and a real mentor. Any amount of praise showered upon him would be meaningless.. He is beyond doubt someone we all will remember forever for being one of the most perfect gentlemen and an officer. 

My sense of loss is also due to the fact that my great health isnt allowing me to attend his farewell party and the feeling that I may never see him again in my life is extremely depressing. He is the one person, who without testing me, without pushing me, just inherently trusted me.. and had my back unquestioningly through miserable experiences.. I dont think there is another person in my workplace I can go to for almost anything the way I could to him.. 

I really want to wish him well and a lot of good wishes for his new life.. he's a poet and a litterateur and so I know he will keep himself busy. I do hope that in some way or the other, he is able to be a part of our lives even after he leaves this State.. 

Here's to you Mathew Sir.

Not one of my good days

Parents with broken bones. Unwell and crying baby. Fights at home. Sudden workload. Shitty boss. And recent feedback about what all rubbish is going on in my area under my nose.. Feeling buried under a mountain right now.. Tired like hell. 

Hope this passes.. sooner than later. 

Long Pause

In the last 2 months, so much has happened that I haven't blogged about that now I find it difficult to pinpoint and write down. Some tragic deaths of innocent people, some major unionisation against me for demanding accountability from staff.. some disgusting politics thwarting wonderful projects and maligning sincere workers.. sometimes I really wonder what makes this job worth all this? Since I have been constantly making this blog a punching bag of sorts I thought I should avoid writing till I have some sliver of a good thing to document. 

So, some good projects have seen the light of day.. managed to finalise the starting of a K.V school here, dumping grounds which was a long standing requirement, other important offices which were running rented buildings have been taken care of, through all the union nonsense, it was heartening to hear stories of mild improvements sprouting here and there.. 

Its tiring to fight for every little thing that should actually just take place ipso facto..sometimes I just want to leave all this and go somewhere far away where I can get some peace of mind, and family time without feeling guilty for not looking into some crisis or the other..  But when occasionally the effort translates into something good, it gives me reason to try just a tiny bit more.. Hence the return, after the long pause!